About a year ago a man from my church came to me and explained that he had just been put out of his house by his wife because of his internet pornography use. He has a beautiful family, wife in her late thirties and two girls in their early teens. He had been part of our church for some years and was active.
He explained to me that he was a computer expert and could get through any filtering system but his wife would not let him back home unless there was something to keep him out of porn. He had already lied to her over and over but couldn't seem to stay clear of it. He finally came to me and put the CPU into my hand and said this was the only way he could stay clear. In essence he gave me his computer since the CPU is the heart of a computer. No CPU-no computer. I was impressed by his determination.
He moved back home and things seemed to be moving along OK when he called me and asked me to give him his CPU back. I asked him how he was going to handle things and his reply was, "I need to have porn access". He really said it, "I NEED TO HAVE PORN ACCESS!"
"What about your family?" I asked.
"I am moving to Florida and will stay with a friend...I guess she will just have to divorce me".
So he did, he left his wife, his children, his career and moved to a different state so that he could continue to have his internet porn. I often ask; "how much will you pay for your internet porn?" This man was willing to trade everything...do you think that internet porn is powerful?
More stories to come- Thanks- Ned
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Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
Porn proof!
Many of my readers know me but most don't know that I was very nearly taken down by internet pornography. I could have been described as "downright upright" at least in my own eyes! Married to a wonderful, beautiful woman, two fine sons, a great business and reputation and a straight up Christian. Most people including me would have said that I was" porn proof"-not.
A number of years ago as I was entering the world of the internet I had heard that internet porn was really shocking. My personality type has always been one to engage an issue and work for change. I had been active back when I was a student in the Vietnam days and active again as a pro lifer as a Christian and had been effective. Well why not internet porn..let's just stamp it out! So I went to a porn site to see what the deal was...I was stunned, flabbergasted at what I saw and little did I know but a the trigger to a character flaw that I knew nothing about had been triggered.
I turned off the computer ,went home and the next day went back for more "research" then more research and within three days I was spending hours consuming and consumed by internet pornography. It was free, it was anonymous and it owned me as fast as crack cocaine. I was in serious trouble and way out of my depth.
This went on for several weeks, hours spent after the office closed, guilt when I was talking to God and fear if anyone found out. I made deals with God on Sunday morning and was back into it by Sunday afternoon. I knew I was going to take a fall, certainly be found out, lose my reputation, any ministry credibility that I might have and worst I knew I would lose my wife. What to do?
I was crying out God about it and had the distinct communication "that if my eye offended me then I should pluck it out...if my hand offended me I should cut it off" Drastic! I took this to mean that I was to get off the internet and stay off. Almost as soon as I agreed with God and was preparing to remove my connection, my web master for my business walked in and said, "hey Ned, have you heard about internet filtering?" I had not told him about my problem or anyone for that matter...so I coolly asked him what he was talking about. He described a program that could keep me out of porn sites, something that would block me even if I tried to get to them. At that time these were provider based and we had no connection to the service so my friend hacked me in so that I could try it...it was wonderful, a relief of enormous proportion. After about a week they discovered me and kicked me off their service and wouldn't let me back. What to do? The porn was back but I knew there was a solution.....so since I am an activist, I decided that if I could not get their protection then I would provide it for myself and for others. So Wisechoice Internet Filtering was born. www.wisechoice.net. A filter designed to protect adults not pretending that the issue was only about kids. A filter that did not give an "adult override password" because adults were the ones with the problem!
Little did I know that I had turned a corner in my life in which I would become an expert in internet pornography, in the traps, in the curse, in the power and that I would be spending the last twelve years keeping myself and thousands of others out of internet porn, hopefully saving their marriages, maybe even their lives.
In this blog I am going to tell stories of folks that I have met and some of the things that I have learned and experienced. I am not cured of this problem but I have learned to control it and would love to share how I have done it...You are not alone even though it may seem that way....feel free to contact me.
WWW.WISECHOICE.NET
A number of years ago as I was entering the world of the internet I had heard that internet porn was really shocking. My personality type has always been one to engage an issue and work for change. I had been active back when I was a student in the Vietnam days and active again as a pro lifer as a Christian and had been effective. Well why not internet porn..let's just stamp it out! So I went to a porn site to see what the deal was...I was stunned, flabbergasted at what I saw and little did I know but a the trigger to a character flaw that I knew nothing about had been triggered.
I turned off the computer ,went home and the next day went back for more "research" then more research and within three days I was spending hours consuming and consumed by internet pornography. It was free, it was anonymous and it owned me as fast as crack cocaine. I was in serious trouble and way out of my depth.
This went on for several weeks, hours spent after the office closed, guilt when I was talking to God and fear if anyone found out. I made deals with God on Sunday morning and was back into it by Sunday afternoon. I knew I was going to take a fall, certainly be found out, lose my reputation, any ministry credibility that I might have and worst I knew I would lose my wife. What to do?
I was crying out God about it and had the distinct communication "that if my eye offended me then I should pluck it out...if my hand offended me I should cut it off" Drastic! I took this to mean that I was to get off the internet and stay off. Almost as soon as I agreed with God and was preparing to remove my connection, my web master for my business walked in and said, "hey Ned, have you heard about internet filtering?" I had not told him about my problem or anyone for that matter...so I coolly asked him what he was talking about. He described a program that could keep me out of porn sites, something that would block me even if I tried to get to them. At that time these were provider based and we had no connection to the service so my friend hacked me in so that I could try it...it was wonderful, a relief of enormous proportion. After about a week they discovered me and kicked me off their service and wouldn't let me back. What to do? The porn was back but I knew there was a solution.....so since I am an activist, I decided that if I could not get their protection then I would provide it for myself and for others. So Wisechoice Internet Filtering was born. www.wisechoice.net. A filter designed to protect adults not pretending that the issue was only about kids. A filter that did not give an "adult override password" because adults were the ones with the problem!
Little did I know that I had turned a corner in my life in which I would become an expert in internet pornography, in the traps, in the curse, in the power and that I would be spending the last twelve years keeping myself and thousands of others out of internet porn, hopefully saving their marriages, maybe even their lives.
In this blog I am going to tell stories of folks that I have met and some of the things that I have learned and experienced. I am not cured of this problem but I have learned to control it and would love to share how I have done it...You are not alone even though it may seem that way....feel free to contact me.
WWW.WISECHOICE.NET
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