Porn proof!

Many of my readers know me but most don't know that I was very nearly taken down by internet pornography. I could have been described as "downright upright" at least in my own eyes! Married to a wonderful, beautiful woman, two fine sons, a great business and reputation and a straight up Christian. Most people including me would have said that I was" porn proof"-not.

A number of years ago as I was entering the world of the internet I had heard that internet porn was really shocking. My personality type has always been one to engage an issue and work for change. I had been active back when I was a student in the Vietnam days and active again as a pro lifer as a Christian and had been effective. Well why not internet porn..let's just stamp it out! So I went to a porn site to see what the deal was...I was stunned, flabbergasted at what I saw and little did I know but a the trigger to a character flaw that I knew nothing about had been triggered.

I turned off the computer ,went home and the next day went back for more "research" then more research  and within three days I was spending hours consuming and consumed by internet pornography. It was free, it was anonymous and it owned me as fast as crack cocaine. I was in serious trouble and way out of my depth.

This went on for several weeks, hours spent after the office closed, guilt when I was talking to God and fear if anyone found out. I made deals with God on Sunday morning and was back into it by Sunday afternoon. I knew I was going to take a fall, certainly be found out, lose my reputation, any ministry credibility that I might have and worst I knew I would lose my wife. What to do?

I was crying out God about it and had the distinct communication "that if my eye offended me then I should pluck it out...if my hand offended me I should cut it off"  Drastic! I took this to mean that I was to get off the internet and stay off.  Almost as soon as I agreed with God and was preparing to remove my connection, my web master for my business walked in and said, "hey Ned, have you heard about internet filtering?" I had not told him about my problem or anyone for that matter...so I coolly asked him what he was talking about. He described a program that could keep me out of porn sites, something that would block me even if I tried to get to them. At that time these were provider based and we had no connection to the service so my friend hacked me in so that I could try it...it was wonderful, a relief of enormous proportion. After about a week they discovered me and kicked me off their service and wouldn't let me back. What to do? The porn was back but I knew there was a solution.....so since I am an activist, I decided that if I could not get their protection then I would provide it for myself and for others. So Wisechoice Internet Filtering was born. www.wisechoice.net. A filter designed to protect adults not pretending that the issue was only about kids. A filter that did not give an "adult override password" because adults were the ones with the problem!

Little did I know that I had turned a corner in my life in which I would become an expert in internet pornography, in the traps, in the curse, in the power and that I would be spending the last twelve years keeping myself and thousands of others out of internet porn, hopefully saving their marriages, maybe even their lives.

In this blog I am going to tell stories of folks that I have met and some of the things that I have learned and experienced. I am not cured of this problem but I have learned to control it and would love to share how I have done it...You are not alone even though it may seem that way....feel free to contact me.

WWW.WISECHOICE.NET