I personally nearly lost my marriage as well as reputation by going to porn sites. I knew that it was wrong, I knew that I risked losing my family, I KNEW that it could ruin everything...yet I still kept doing it....go figure.When ever I meet someone who has really screwed things up for themselves I also ask myself, I wonder if they thought that they could possibly be in this mess back when they were starting out as kids or young adults. The answer is alway -no! Yet people find themselves in jail, or addicted, or marriages finished...you name it.
In my increasingly extended life I have found that I usually make the dumb decission when I am angry (fighting with my spouse who I love completely), or when I am really tired, or really stressed. These are my weak times and over the years have done some crazy unfortunate things.
My wife recently stopped smoking cigarettes after about thirty years of it. I used to ask her why she didn't just stop? Her reply was, "what is the deal with you and internet porn. I wish I could just put a filter on my brain that would make me stop smoking!"
She got me with that one.
But here is the deal, what if we could put a filter or a wall around our dangerous behaviors. People who abuse credit cards can cut up their card and people using porn can install filters...so why don't we?
